Hi friends. She Reads Truth starting their link up on Fridays back up again brought me so much excitement... until I saw what we would be writing about this week: great commissioned moments. Cool. The worst disciple in the world has to share a story about making disciples? Ugh.
As a little background for those of you that don't read the SRT devos, this week we've been exploring a series called He is Risen. It has shed tons of light on how we as Christians are called to live, knowing that our Lord is alive, and I've learned tons about it. However, I've also learned tons about my own selfishness and ultimately sin that is all entangled in it. Yuck. Being a disciple is hard, and making them is harder, but it's what we are called to do (Matthew 28:19).
I have to admit, I am not super fond of talking to people much, let alone sharing the gospel. I feel way too ill equipped to talk about Jesus or pray for people, and I am very comfortable just staying quiet when God has opened that golden door for me to drop a gospel bomb into a conversation. I am a sinner.
So for this link up, I am supposed to share a story of a time when I have experienced a commissioned moment and been witness to God's hand at work, and all week I've just been dreading writing to you guys. All the time, I hear stories of people who make an Athiest friend or something and then a week later, all of a sudden, Jesus has opened their eyes and they get saved and God let person A be a mighty part of that saving journey. My husband is rockstar disciple. He knows the Bible so well and is seriously such a warrior. He turns most conversations into ones about Jesus and loves people so much that he just wants their hearts to be softened. He has been a witness to God's hand in these commissioned moments many, many times. Lot's of his friends have been saved out of sin and death and into new life. It's amazing to watch people transform.
But that's not me.
I haven't ever talked to someone about Jesus and watched them be transformed right before my eyes. That's discouraging. But I think Amanda put it best this week in saying, "Spreading [the Gospel] message is your responsibility, but it is still [God's] work." We may plant seeds that aren't yet ready to be sown. I can recall so many people that shared the gospel with me when I was an Athiest and I blew them off, but then one day, all of it just clicked. Maybe our work isn't in vain.
After much of this week spent in repentance for my selfishness, my idol of comfort, my lack of love for not only God's people, but God Himself, and my ashamedness of the gospel, God did something awesome. He showed me some fruit.
On Thursday nights, we host what has turned into a growing bible study in our home. What started as me and my husband and a friend having dinner each week and talking about Jesus has turned into a group of fifteen and counting. We are all friends and every week we pray, we eat, we laugh, and we dig into the Bible and see what it has to say about our sinful nature and God's redemption. That seems sort of disciple-y if you ask me. Also, I try to pray with the sweet girls I watch before each meal, when they are upset, when I put them to sleep, we listen to veggie tales, we watch Listener Kids videos. We talk a lot about Jesus, and the oldest is starting to talk a lot about Him too. I cried the first time I heard her singing about Him and the Bible. So amazing.
I think that's my story for this week. I am not a great disciple maker. I need Jesus. I don't see very much fruit, but when I search hard, there is some. I have to do a lot of repenting of my desire to stay in my comfortable shell, and a lot of praying for God to change my heart towards Him and His people, but I have faith that He will continue molding me until I am the fiercest little warrior I could ever be.
I've also been memorizing scripture more; I think these two verses are great for this area:
"For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek. For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith for faith, as it is written, 'The righteous shall live by faith.'" (Romans 1:16-17 ESV)
Let's make it a point to be unashamed of the Gospel, knowing that it is the only power of God for salvation.