She Who Fears

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We all say it: “the days are long, but the years are short,” but when you add two kids to your one kid, I think that saying becomes even more relevant. Here we are, exactly one year after welcoming Kuyper and Kinsley earthside and it honestly feels unreal to me.


You finally find a routine that works and then they’re into the next leap, needing something new from you  There were days, long, long days where I cried nearly as much as my three kids combined. Being a twin mom, a mom of three under two, has been hard . This last year has stretched me and worn me so thin; it’s been nonstop and left me wondering how I can possibly muster enough energy or emotion or love or grace or literally anything at all to step forward and keep going on.


The days are long.  

But then, where did the time go? Didn’t he — no, she— just roll over for the first time? Wasn’t it her — or maybe it was him, yes, definitely him — that just said his first word? It happens too quickly. One has a first and then the next does it too.   


My heart could burst with the amount of overwhelming joy these children have brought me. Yes, double the work, but maybe quadruple the laughter. Twins are so special. Watching two humans develop into their own separate personalities, despite experiencing nearly the exact same conditions every day is truly magical. 


The years are short. 

The past 365 days have flown — I’m not kidding you flown  — by. They were literally born yesterday and now they are one. I can’t wrap my head around it and it’s quite possible I just don’t want to. 

Praise God for Kuyper Shea and Kinsley Joy Brazil. They are two extraordinary children whom I love with the deepest parts of my being and getting to mother them is an honor I hope to be blessed with many more years of.


24 by 24

Jordyn Brazil1 Comment

Considering I turned 23 back in November, this post is actually a few months overdue. I did share a little sneak peek of my list on my instagram stories, but with no explanation and I don't think you could really even see what was on it or possibly even what it was. Anyways, I don't remember the details of that and it probably doesn't even really matter.

I'm also really unoriginal because this whole thing wasn't even my idea in the first place. I was inspired by Emily, who writes a blog as well. A few months ago she shared her 40 by 40 list and the goal-setter in me couldn't wait to make a list of my own! 


So, in all its glory and in no particular order of importance:

  1. Become a licensed real estate agent
  2. Visit the Ocean
  3. Get motorcycle license
  4. Read through my new bible
  5. Start counting my macros again
  6. Memorize the Westminster Shorter Catechism
  7. Memorize the Nicene Creed
  8. Get a bike / go for family bike rides
  9. Finish Mattheus' baby book (oops)
  10. Send flowers to 3 people
  11. Teach Mattheus all of his letters and their sounds
  12. Refinish the piano
  13. Have a garage sale
  14. Learn double unders
  15. Get a handstand down
  16. Get comfy with my squat cleans and jerks
  17. Clean out my closet
  18. Give up soda
  19. Plan + celebrate fifth anniversary well
  20. Heal diastis recti
  21. Makeover laundry room
  22. Start SWF back up
  23. Go camping
  24. Make it a habit to wake up early


I'm excited to start this little birthday tradition and looking at my list makes me excited for the year ahead -- I can't believe I've never done anything like this before! What about you? Does this idea speak to the goal-setter in you?